Time stand still, beauty in all she is♥

Something happened that made my Christmas “extra special”.

God has really a way of surprising us! :)

Forgiveness is one of the best gifts that you can give to someone. It cannot be measured; nor even touched. It is only felt by the heart. The heart that had gone through pains, but still choose to get rid of all its grudges inside it.

“You’ve taught me what true love feels like. You love and give everything that you have. It sucks and it hurts, but that’s what love really means. You’ve taught me that feelings can change, passion will fade, partners will come and go, but through it all, love will still remains & memories of yesterday will still be a part of what we are today, & one thing remains sacred: friendship”

Don’t let yourself get so angry that you stop loving. Hurting is a part of growing up. It prepares us for the big things that will happen in our lives. All my life, I know that there’s this one guy whom I loved so much, always have & always will, even if our break up brought me so much pain that I cannot ever imagine. That was the biggest heartache I’ve ever felt. I know that I cannot love anyone again as much as I have loved him if by chance I may love someone again. I’ve been very harsh to other guys who stretches themselves out just so they can make me happy. I know that they’re trying, all their efforts, all the things that they’re doing just so they can show that they care and love me, but still, I cannot blame my heart for not allowing them to come in because my heart’s still belong to someone who once became mine.

I know things had come complicated now, and I must admit that I thought we’ll never have a chance to even talk to each other again, or even save the friendship that once we have after this 6 months break up. I’m not hoping for us to become together again, I just thought maybe, that we could be friends and I would still forgive him in any way no matter what.

So months passed, and still, he’s still the one. I told to myself that I’ll stop loving him when he already found his new treasure. I thought he found someone already, so I set myself na dapat prepared ako sa mga mangyayari. Edi tanggap ko na kung ano man mangyari, yung feeling na kung saan siya masaya, susuportahan mo nalang. Tapos kahit masakit para sayo, magiging masaya ka nalang din para sa kanya kasi mahal mo sya.. :)

• I fill my days with memories of him. I remember how he used to look at me, as if I was his most valuable treasure. Has he found a new treasure? I can’t help but wonder if we will be able to find our way back to each other. The road seems so very long, and my head is crowded with such a dark thought. I feel our bond grows weaker by the day and I’m powerless to stop it.

Then we’re not talking for months, no communication at all. Suddenly, on the 24th day of December, night at that, we finally talked to each other. Its Christmas naman, time to forgive. And I don’t want to be bitter forever no, so I still found forgiveness in my heart. After all, I knew that I would still forgive him all over and over again. And for that split second it was like we forgave each other for everything :)

Hindi mo alam kung gaano gumaan yung pakiramdam ko, nawala lahat ng galit ko :)

After that, I prayed. I felt the tears down through my eyes. I cried a little while saying, “si Lord talaga, mahilig mang-surprise! In his time, I know everything will be okay!” I believe in that. I thought this time would never come, yung magiging okay ulit kami? Who would have thought di ba? Akala ko forever na kaming magiging “strangers” sa isa’t-isa. Or maybe, matagal pa ulit bago kami maging okay ulit. But see. I’m glad we’re friends again now! ♥

“Sana magtuloy-tuloy na to, kahit as friends nalang, masaya ako na-save yung friendship natin.. Madami akong natutunan sa relationship natin. Masaya akong i-end yung taon ng wala ng galit sa puso ko. Yung tipong kahit makita ko palang picture mo o marinig pangalan mo, hindi na ako mapapaiyak. Hahaha. At handa naman na akong kalimutan lahat ng nangyari.. Lahat ng masasakit na nangyari. Gusto ko bigyan ka ulit ng chance na maging part ulit ng buhay ko. May not be as lovers anymore, but will always be good friends. Finally! :)”

SEE YOU LATER! with our JNF friends♥