PERFECT! --like the way I am when I'm w/ YOU

January 28, 2012: So this is how my day went. A typical Saturday, where me and my super sister buddy, Agatha, have this routine worshiping God at HisLife Church every Saturday, by attending the youth gig at 2pm. (even if we admit that sometimes we missed a youth gig, and not consistently going there every Saturday, but we are trying the best that we can) As for January, we only missed one Saturday, I guess:)

I just wanted to share about the Word of God a while ago at the Church :)

The word that Pastor Ru said was about being “WISE”. It’s about answering question: “What do I do”.

An opening verse says, “From Issachar, men who understood the times and knew what Israel should do – 200 chiefs, with all their relatives under their command (NIV)”- 1 Chronicles 12:32

-The men knew what will happen, what’s going to happen, and what has something to be done. We just don’t wait for what will happen in our lives, but rather we must do something to make it happen, we must understand, and knew what we have to do.

Most of the times, questions come into our mind and we don’t know where or how to find the answers to it. Most of those questions are:

• What do I do?
• When do I do it?
• How do I know the will of God?

In order for us to be wise, being wise meaning, we are doing things according to God’s will and plan, we are not making decisions based on our own understanding but rather on what God wants us to do. Here are the three things that was taught a while ago in order for us to be wise :)

1. WAIT ON GOD (Waiting on the Lord!)

- Don’t make a move without the command of God. Most of the times, we sin because we are choosing decisions which are not according to God’s will. We are tempted by these temptations around us that’s why we forgot to wait for the right timing. We often do things in a rush. Waiting on the Lord means that we must not be thinking things which are not yet to be done. In God’s time, everything will happen and we just don’t need to rush things.

Making decisions without thinking about the consequences after is one of the things which we often do. Before making or doing something, let’s pray for it first and everything else will follow.

A very powerful word says it all, “Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”- Psalm 27:14

We fail to put God first in everything that we do. We forget that all the material things that we have, all those, we can never bring them to heaven if ever it’s our time to leave this Earth that we are living in for now. We fail to remember that we live for him, to honor and worship him, to give back all the praises to him.

When God has given us the answer to every decision that we prayed for him, we must stick to that answer. We must trust him from the bottom of our heart. It’s him who says that to us, him who knew all the things and wants nothing but the best for us. If he said YES, or NO, then we should obey.

“In all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”- Proverbs 3:6

THIS WILL NEVER FAIL - PUT GOD FIRST. Stop. Pause. Wait for God.

Then the funny part of the lecture was when Pastor talked about L-O-V-E. Haha. Since next week it will be love month, so he decided to have a topic about it which he relates to the word of God this day :)

Most of the crowd were tweens and teens. Then they reacted in every word that Pastor says!

He had an advice to boys. And it says:

@BOYS: Real love is expressed through real waiting. “I love you also means you are worth waiting for”

-Oha! Haha. Many guys reacted. Pastor explained that for example, the woman that the guy wanted signed the Manifesto, it was God’s will for her that the guy should respect and understand. The guy should not rush things and they should be patient enough and rather than being into addiction, they should seek God first.

“He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the LORD.”- Proverbs 18:22

Pastor said that it was written in the Bible that THE MAN FINDS A WIFE. He said that the women must not be the one who make the first move in order for the man to be attracted to them. Haha.

@GIRLS: I believe that God has given you the privilege to be sought after like a princess - -Don’t give away that privilege.

-Fabulous! Haha. Girls like us, we were sought after like a princess. The right man for us is the one that loves God more than we love him. Someone that will be with us through good and bad times, and will not put us into harm nor evil. Someone who will patiently waits at the right time because we said to. Someone who will say that after all the things and the hard moments that we gave to them, still, they will say that we are worth waiting for :)

And one thing more, I will not be praying to have a boyfriend again, cause I’m still not ready and I know and still believe that at the right time, all the things that left unanswered will be answered by the same person who was left those hanging.. ♥

OUR COMPLETION OUGHT TO BE GOD ALONE —and everything else will be just an added bonus :)

“WHILE YOU’RE AT IT, DON’T COMPLAIN! :)”

2. ASK FOR WISDOM

“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.(5) But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.(6) Those who doubt should not think they will receive anything from the Lord.(7) They are double-minded and unstable in all they do.(8)”- James 1:5-8

- Just like Solomon in the Old Testament, he asked for one thing. When God ask him what does he want, he just ask for wisdom. He had many choices, but still he choose to have not a material thing, but a character which he knew will help him in leading all the glorious people of God. He ask for it so that he may knew what it right from wrong, in order for the people to be in the right path. Wisdom, which means “A God-Listening heart”

“So give your servant a discerning heart to govern your people and to distinguish between right and wrong. For who is able to govern this great people of yours?(9) The Lord was pleased that Solomon had asked for this.(10) So God said to him, “Since you have asked for this and not for long life or wealth for yourself, nor have asked for the death of your enemies but for discernment in administering justice,(11) I will do what you have asked. I will give you a wise and discerning heart, so that there will never have been anyone like you, nor will there ever be.(12) Moreover, I will give you what you have not asked for – both wealth and honor – so that in your lifetime you will have no equal among kings.(13) And if you walk in obedience to me and keep my decrees and commands as David your father did, I will give you a long life.(14)”- 1 Kings 3:9-14

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”- Matthew 7:7

- Pray to God and seek His kingdom first then all the things will be added unto us.

“But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.(6) Those who doubt should not think they will receive anything from the Lord.(7) They are double-minded and unstable in all they do.(8)”- James 1:5-8

- Have faith on what God wants us to do, for he only want what’s best for us.

3. READ THE BIBLE

- “The Bible is the book of instructions before leaving Earth.”

In everything that we do, we should make sure that the one we are doing and considering is not something which the Bible forbids. In order for us to know what is the answers to the questions in our lives that seems like do not have answers, we should read the Bible in order for us to understand what’s our purpose in here and what God wants us to do. 

“Those who have clean hands and a pure heart, who do not put their trust in an idol or swear by a false god.(4) They will receive blessing from the LORD and vindication from God their Savior.(5)”- Psalm 24:4-5

“Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness?”- 2 Corinithians 6:14

We must not be with the one who does not believe in God. For the good relationship with God and a bad relationship with other cannot be together at the same time.

It’s really nice to feel the presence of God just when you needed Him the most. It’s good to know that someone loves you so much, and accepts you who you are. Someone who can forgive you for all the mistakes that you’ve done, and you’re doing without even noticing it, and still doing sin that even if you may hurt him. It’s the best feeling when you know that he can forgive you no matter what. Nothing can compare to His undying, unconditional love. He is truly unshakable.. ♥

“I worship you my God, I worship you my God, I love you. I love you. Forever I will sing, forever I will be with you, I’ll be with you..♫♫”

“Holy are you God. Holy is your name. In everything I got, my heart will sing, how I love you..♫♫”

I’ll never get tired of coming back to you, SUBIC ♥

Subic is definitely one of my favorite places. I’ve been to other places here in the Philippines, (which is not as much, and I wanted to travel more and see the beauty of Philippines) but still, it will be my first love ♥

Let me share you why I so love this place :)

1. I go to Subic when I’m with my family..♥

We always go there whenever there’s a time, and it’s best to have our family bonding together with doing lots of stuff and adventures :)

2. The first time I got there with my friends was last year, April 4,2011..

 I’m with Ams and Denz. They are my good friends, and we bonded each other. We ate our lunch at KFC, then roamed around Royal, (where we bought much of chocolates and chips at affordable price! :D), the OUTLETS, (esp. Nike) then unexpectedly, napunta kami sa ZAMBALES! We went at a nice beach there. I really had a great time with them then :)

3. It was a Summer Couple Adventure way back then.. April 14,2011..

10 DAYS after, I go back to Subic. This time, with my JNF friends. Since they are busy reviewing for their upcoming board exams then (cause they just graduated BS. Nursing. Hooray! :) ), we decided to have a Summer Break, pero sayang dahil hindi nakasama yung iba, makikita sa pictures na to na couples talaga kami lahat! Bawal ang walang partner. Joke! Hahaha. (since me and my ex are still together then♥).

We ate at S&R pizza, the best pizza I’ve ever eaten so far!♥ Tapos we went at Treetop adventure. It’s my first time to ride then. Exciting! Haha. Ang saya ng feeling. Ako pa naman yung tipo ng tao na mahilig sa mga adventures kaya gustong-gusto ko talaga yun. :)) Next, the Pier. Ang ganda sa place na yun. Makikita mo talaga yung dagat, tapos naka-stay ka dun sa gitna. I fell in love with that place♥ Nice view, you can take pictures there, mahangin, and all! Pwede kang mag-mala Titanic don. HAHAHA! Lastly, Camayan Beach Resort! The place was so relaxing, clean, and all. Nag-enjoy kaming nag-beach dun. Sulit!♥

That was the best summer ever, cause I’m with HIM then. Tapos first time ko sya makasama sa ganun. I was the happiest! :) (With Roselle, Franz, Jepay, Jed, Irene, Allen, Me and my Pao then :) )

4. Unexpectedly.. August 20,2011..

After that April, I never went to Subic na. That was the last for the Summer. Then it’s back to school that June, so there’s no time for me to go there. Plus, many things had happened. But here, August came, and unexpectedly, I went there again with a friend, I repeat, a friend. And his family, whom I met for the first time. They welcomed me warmly! They’re so nice, nakakatouch sila. Haha. I was very shy then. Cause sino ba naman ako di ba? Friend ko lang naman si Erick :) That was the first time that they met me too, but I really enjoyed their company :)

We went to Treetop Adventure. This time, it’s my second time. We rode all the rides! :) Right after that, we went at Zoobic Safari. I enjoyed seeing those animals, esp. the tigerssss :) We spend the afternoon there, and they also have a zipline. As usual, triny din namin. Haha ♥

5. Sembreak at Subic, October 24, 2011..

We spent our Sembreak wisely! Haha. Syempre hindi mawawala si favorite place ko sa mga isa sa pupuntahan. So here we gooo. I’m with Erick, Agatha, Ams, new found friends: Liezel and Mhavi♥

We ate at Meat Plus. They have the delicious food!♥ It’s our first time to eat there. Sulit naman. Then we passed by the outlets. Zoobic Safari-ed again. This time, we get to see other parts of the Safari more. Then we stayed at the Lighthouse. That was the first time I get to see its beauty since it was already evening then. Ang gandaaaa, I fell in love with it more♥ 

Surely we had a great time with each other :)

6. RECENTLY: HELLO 2012! FIRST GETAWAY TO SUBIC! January 21, 2012..

This would be the last but not the least! Haha. Hello again Subic!♥ Here, 2012 na! Haha. We just go there recently, last Saturday :) With Agatha, Sotts, and Erick. This was again, unplanned. Agatha made this! Haha. At natuloy naman. This was the post celebration of Erick’s birthday na din, kasi he had his 19th birthday last January 19 :)

This was sooo fun! Kasi kasama ko yung mga kwela friends ko. Si Sotts, si Bugay. At si Gaths, si Buday. Hahaha. Tawa kami ng tawa all along sa byahe. We had our lunch at Texas Joe. I shall say they have the best nachos & steak!♥ Yuuuum!

After that, we went to Pier again. Noon nalang ulit ako bumalik don after nung punta ko nung minention ko sa no.3 :)  I should say, all the memories accidentally come back.. Way back when I was with him then.. Ang sakit lang. Kasi dati, sya yung kasama mo dun, pero ngayon, hindi na. Gustong-gusto ko talaga pumunta ulit nun dun sa Pier.. Last ko kasi pumunta nun is yung kasama ko sya. Pero now I have no reasons to be sad, kasi okay naman na kami. Masaya ako nakabalik ulit ako dun after all. Namiss ko lang yung memories bigla. Oh that amazing place, not only that. ALAM KONG SA TUWING PUMUPUNTA AKO SA SUBIC, IKAW ANG NAAALALA KO :)

Then we went to Zambales and Olongapo! Naghahanap kasi kami ng mapupuntahan pa, ayun, napadpad kami dyan! Haha. Roadtrip much! :))

The Lighthouse. Kahit na hindi kami nag-stay ng gabi dun, we still get to see its beauty. Of course, since nasa Subic kami, picture dito, picture doon. And hindi naman namin palalagpasin na wala kaming picture sa lighthouse! Haha ♥

At last, we were able to eat the cake that was brought for Erick at Starbucks :)

Kwentuhan, tawanan, coffee-coffee, ayun. Natapos ang masayang araw :))

Ay hindi pa pala! Hahaha. We went to SM pampanga pa nun :)

Alam kong hindi lang dito natatapos to. Haha. Madaming beses pa din akong pupunta dito♥ 

I’ll have different places to visit pa din, someday. And I hope I can share these few moments.

“Make every moment count.. ♥”

Since I faced the college world, I know it would not be easy for me to adjust to it because I get used to the things that I used to do when I was in high school. Really, things were different. You got a lot of school works to do, requirements, and everything! Lalo na ngayon, I’m third year college, taking up BS. Medical Technology. There are times when you don’t even get a full 8 hour sleep! Tests in a row, requirements, manuals to be passed the next day after the experiment, or worse, right after the experiment. Hahaha :D

Ganyan ang buhay ng MedTech student. Pero I’m so thankful that I’m surviving this. Konting konti nalang, ggraduate na ako! Isang year na lang. Laging yan yung mga pumapasok sa isip ko kapag may mga oras na pagod na ako, tapos sasabayan pa ng katamaran. Haha. Then effective naman pala yan, ma-momotivate na ako nun :))

At syempre, not only that. I’m surviving this because I have my friends — they’re more than a best friend♥ Luckily, I have them!♥ Kahit na busy kami, we find time to unwind some time. Tapos masaya kami lagi pag magkakasama. The good thing about this friendship is that we understand each other like a family. Tapos you know that you can count on them just when you needed them the most :)) No one can ever replace them in my heart, and the memories that we shared ♥

WE ARE 2 YEARS AND 9 MONTHS NA!♥ Every 20th of the month is our monthsary! So last January 20, 2012, we decided to celebrate since it’s Friday also, and we don’t have much work to do :)

A mexican-inspired place, ZAPATA’s :)) (P.S Absent si Tine at Au :D )

I always remember how our friendship began, and I’m praying that a friendship that’s as beautiful like this won’t never end..♥

Sherlock-ed last Monday with a friend :)) Bagay sa kanya yung movie! Lol. Withha Laaaaw :)

Something happened that made my Christmas “extra special”.

God has really a way of surprising us! :)

Forgiveness is one of the best gifts that you can give to someone. It cannot be measured; nor even touched. It is only felt by the heart. The heart that had gone through pains, but still choose to get rid of all its grudges inside it.

“You’ve taught me what true love feels like. You love and give everything that you have. It sucks and it hurts, but that’s what love really means. You’ve taught me that feelings can change, passion will fade, partners will come and go, but through it all, love will still remains & memories of yesterday will still be a part of what we are today, & one thing remains sacred: friendship”

Don’t let yourself get so angry that you stop loving. Hurting is a part of growing up. It prepares us for the big things that will happen in our lives. All my life, I know that there’s this one guy whom I loved so much, always have & always will, even if our break up brought me so much pain that I cannot ever imagine. That was the biggest heartache I’ve ever felt. I know that I cannot love anyone again as much as I have loved him if by chance I may love someone again. I’ve been very harsh to other guys who stretches themselves out just so they can make me happy. I know that they’re trying, all their efforts, all the things that they’re doing just so they can show that they care and love me, but still, I cannot blame my heart for not allowing them to come in because my heart’s still belong to someone who once became mine.

I know things had come complicated now, and I must admit that I thought we’ll never have a chance to even talk to each other again, or even save the friendship that once we have after this 6 months break up. I’m not hoping for us to become together again, I just thought maybe, that we could be friends and I would still forgive him in any way no matter what.

So months passed, and still, he’s still the one. I told to myself that I’ll stop loving him when he already found his new treasure. I thought he found someone already, so I set myself na dapat prepared ako sa mga mangyayari. Edi tanggap ko na kung ano man mangyari, yung feeling na kung saan siya masaya, susuportahan mo nalang. Tapos kahit masakit para sayo, magiging masaya ka nalang din para sa kanya kasi mahal mo sya.. :)

• I fill my days with memories of him. I remember how he used to look at me, as if I was his most valuable treasure. Has he found a new treasure? I can’t help but wonder if we will be able to find our way back to each other. The road seems so very long, and my head is crowded with such a dark thought. I feel our bond grows weaker by the day and I’m powerless to stop it.

Then we’re not talking for months, no communication at all. Suddenly, on the 24th day of December, night at that, we finally talked to each other. Its Christmas naman, time to forgive. And I don’t want to be bitter forever no, so I still found forgiveness in my heart. After all, I knew that I would still forgive him all over and over again. And for that split second it was like we forgave each other for everything :)

Hindi mo alam kung gaano gumaan yung pakiramdam ko, nawala lahat ng galit ko :)

After that, I prayed. I felt the tears down through my eyes. I cried a little while saying, “si Lord talaga, mahilig mang-surprise! In his time, I know everything will be okay!” I believe in that. I thought this time would never come, yung magiging okay ulit kami? Who would have thought di ba? Akala ko forever na kaming magiging “strangers” sa isa’t-isa. Or maybe, matagal pa ulit bago kami maging okay ulit. But see. I’m glad we’re friends again now! ♥

“Sana magtuloy-tuloy na to, kahit as friends nalang, masaya ako na-save yung friendship natin.. Madami akong natutunan sa relationship natin. Masaya akong i-end yung taon ng wala ng galit sa puso ko. Yung tipong kahit makita ko palang picture mo o marinig pangalan mo, hindi na ako mapapaiyak. Hahaha. At handa naman na akong kalimutan lahat ng nangyari.. Lahat ng masasakit na nangyari. Gusto ko bigyan ka ulit ng chance na maging part ulit ng buhay ko. May not be as lovers anymore, but will always be good friends. Finally! :)”

SEE YOU LATER! with our JNF friends♥